Happy Birthday

I turn 28 tomorrow. It is again the big day of the year. Today I rule by virtue of my birth.

I am getting older! A few white hairs here and there. A slight belly – though my wife thinks otherwise.

This year
1. I got married
2. I am expecting a baby next year

It’s been a wonderful year.

I have observed that my life has revolved around 3 things this whole year
a. Family – my wife
b. My kid, enjoying life in his mom’s belly – now 8 months old
c. Money, money & money

There has been very little turbulence this year – emotionally & materially. Smooth sailing is unnerving sometimes and boring sometimes. The turbulent life seemed idealistic. Now it is more down-to-earth. Roll up your sleeves and get your hands dirty with work.

Now I understand why married men are considered steady and steadfast. I am a 100% family man this year.

Cheers! Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday!

Yet another year is over for me, and yet another is starting, my 27th. Life has moved along since last year this day.

1. I am in Chennai now
2. I am in a new company
3. I am engaged
4. I will be getting married this year
5. I am being paid 40% more than last year
6. I am carrying less emotional baggage than the past 3-4 years

While the downsides have been a steadiness in emotions, style and habits to the point of complete lack of inspiration, the consolations have been consistency and resolve.

I have witnessed a complete change in myself in relationships and my decisions to keep them where they are meant to be. I think more from the mind and less from the heart. There are a lot of actionable and fanciful impulses that never find expression now. I am more like a mute spectator to my passions than writhing in their futileness and exalting at their power. I am suffering less from life than the past 3-4 years. I am living more in the real world than ever before. There are moments when all this lack of impulsiveness bullies me into a quiet spell. But I come back sooner than before.

There have been periods when my personality has been unable to cope with my profession. Now I am an integral part of my profession. I am more ordinary. I am more docile to emotions. I am able to hold back my impulses. I am smarter now than the tottering idealistic bravado. I am more with the ways of the world.

All these years have been, the past 3-4, a learning experience with adulthood. Now my sights are set toward making money, being successful in my career. To a point entering into marriage has been a major catalyst in this change. I am now thinking of TV cabinets, refrigerators and the necessity of a microwave at home than poetry. I want to buy a car in 2 years, when I will have a kid. I need to have a house by that time. My salary would have to double for that. I need to be selling more trucks today for all that.

Happy Birthday!